why did i fall in love with you, only to rush out of it so quickly?
why do you tell me that i mean so much to you, when i dont feel any warmth from you? is it a reflection of my attitude that i know you dont mean as much to me as i wish you did?
why do i feel the way i do about you? is it because i know i cant have you, so i pine?
why did i not admit to myself that i really truely cared about you at the time when it mattered the most? does ‘too late’ actually exist for us?
i am not dating the one i wish i was with.
and i want to do the honorable thing in this situation.
is that for me to leave behind both of the hearts i feel tied to, and start anew with someone else?
is that for me to follow my heart, and leave the one i dont feel attached to anymore, just to be with the one i want?
or is that a scheme, and not truely me following my heart?
i know if i dont find an answer soon, this will become a new, but not foreign, battle between the heart and the head.
and that is where the ugly lies.
that is a line i am not willing to cross again.